Sunday, October 30, 2011

Fandom4Texas Fundraiser Contribution - The Demon Within

In 2011, Texas has lost more land to wildfires than every other state in the U.S. combined. Since the current fire season began, Texas Forest Service and area fire departments have responded to 22,602 fires that have burned 3,761,966 acres. Thousands of Texans have lost their homes, businesses, pets, and even family members in the worst fires Texas has seen in our recorded history.

Everyone who sends Fandom4Texas a donation receipt, dated Sept 5th 2011 or later, of least $5 to one of the below relief agencies will receive a compilation of fanfiction and original stories from over 175 authors.

To read more about this tragedy or to donate money to a listed charity go here.  There are just over 2 days left to donate to receive the compilation.

My contribution for the fundraiser is a one-shot called The Demon Within, inspired by the song Demon Seed by Nine Inch Nails.  The beautiful banner below has been made by the lovely vbfb1, and I have included a teaser for the story.

Edward suppressed his need for human blood decades ago and has lived a good and virtuous life since then.  Will his unparalleled desire for Bella’s blood unleash his demons once more?  AU.

I try to resist your charms. ...

God knows how I try.

Countless hours wrapped up in your scent. The aroma of your blood and of your body, driving me crazy little by little, until the sanity I claw onto is hanging by a thread. A tenuous thread of love and respect and humanity which is shredding until, as I fear, there is but a single twine left. A tiny remnant that will snap and splinter like glass shards with the smallest of encouragement from you.

I warn you.

God knows how often I tell you.

Never-ending conversations about my true nature, about what I really am deep inside, dark and monstrous, regardless of my sparkling external casing. You never believe me yet the consequences of what you ask for are unknown. I’ve tried to prepare you as much as I can, but in the end the decision is yours and I will acquiesce this time. I have crumbled against your persistence, because deep down I crave it too.

If you aren't able to contribute to the fundraiser, the one-shot will be available on on January 1, 2012.

Suz xx

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

New drabble fic - Splendour Mine

Hi again,

I just realised I'd drafted this last post before I started posting the new fic and I haven't had the chance to get back to upload it.  Due to the high level of interest in Garrett and Jasper from my drabble fic, Beautiful Tyrant, and that it's not very appropriate to go into too much detail of their relationship in that story, I decided to write this seperate story all about them (in and amongst the main story).

Five chapters have been posted already providing some back story.  The back story will continue until Chapter 13, after which the chapters posted will link to the same time frame as Beautiful Tyrant.

vbfb1 made me this fabulous banner and I love it.  It inspires me each and every time I look at it:

Link to fic here.

Suz xxx

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Week 7 Pic Tease for Beautiful Tyrant

 This week its all about the Cullen boys and an invitation....and a little secret revealed!

An enormous thank you to vbfb1 for the fic banner and for each weekly pic tease - she does such a marvelous job - check out her other banners here.

Next Week - Bella dominates the page :-)

Suz xxx

Monday, August 29, 2011

Weekly Pic Teases 5&6 of Beautiful Tyrant

Oops....Real Life hit me hard the last two weeks and never got a chance to update the blog until now - here are the pic teases for Week 5 - Garrett tries to get to the bottom of Edward's melancholy - and Week 6 - Charlie and Mike Newton discuss his plans for Bella....

Suz xxx

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Week 4 Pic Tease - Beautiful Tyrant

This week is all about Edward, which I'm positive will make readers v happy.  vbfb1 is making me these fantastic weekly pic teases plus the original banners.

Week 4 starts posting in 10 hours

Suz xxx

Monday, August 8, 2011

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Beautiful Tyrant - Weekly Pic Tease

The pic tease for this weeks daily drabble posts made by vbfb1:

And last week's which I tweeted but couldn't post here:

Suz xxx

Monday, July 18, 2011

Beautiful Tyrant - new daily drabble fic

Quite out of the blue an idea for a drabble fic popped into my head and wouldn't be stuffed back into the plot bunny folder.  I'm quite excited about it and to date have written a month's worth of drabbles in advance of posting.  The story has been inspired by Shakespeare's Romeo & Juliet.

Beautiful Tryrant will start posting next Saturday 23 June and then continue daily with one post a day.

Here is a little tease for the story:

Banner made by the talented vbfb1 - to see more of her work click here.


A modern day story of a Romeo and his Juliet.  A tale of love and woe told in 100 word daily drabbles. Will this love affair end in tragedy too?  Edward and Bella.  AH.

Starting this Wednesday and continuing each Wednesday after that I will post a pic tease for the next week's updates (made by the lovely and talented vbfb1).

Stay tuned.  

Suz xxxx

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Happy Birthday!

It was my beta's birthday yesterday, 15 July - Happy Birthday beans827 - and because she means so much to me, I decided to write her a little story for her birthday present which included some of her favourite things.  I stumbled across beans on a twilighted thread offering beta services late in 2009 and clicking on the reply button was the best decision ever.  Beans has had to put up with a lot over the last 18mths  - not enought comma's, then too many comma's and to this day I still manage to switch tenses part way through chapters.  I'm sure it drives her crazy but she is always gracious, and hasn't turfed me for being too much of a pain in the arse, yet!

Apart from being my long suffering beta, beans has become a very good friend and we chat daily along with pyjammies, who beans introduced me to.  Pyjammies stepped up to beta this little fic, of course at the last minute, because as per usual my idea of nice little one-shot turned into a 3 chap mini-fic and I finished it and posted it on FF on the day. Thank you P :-)

So, in honour of bean's birthday and her love of Edward and Jasper (together, together) and our own little crush - here is Little Blue Heart:

This gorgeous banner was made by the talented, and lovely, vbfb1 - links to her work here.


A scientist with a little crush. A porn star looking for more. Whatever could these two have in common? Slash EdwardxJasper A little birthday fic for beans827


Part 1 - Just a litte crush

Just because I knew some little known facts about a gorgeous, lean, twink porn star, did not mean I was a stalker.  I knew these things because I was interested in the enigma that was Jazz Hale and not just for his bleached blond hair, award-winning peen and round-cheeked ass.  He was soft-hearted, wickedly funny and smart.  When he smiled, and looked deep into the camera with those amazing blue eyes, something twisted in my chest as much as it caused my cock to harden and my balls to pull up. 

Part 2 - More than meets the eye
Outwardly I had performed for the cameras as if nothing was wrong, but inside I was slowly dying.  My blond, outgoing, porn persona, Jazz Hale, loved sex and loved performing for the camera, but the whole time I was getting fucked, I was secretly wishing that people were as interested in my brain as they were in my asshole.    I had the odd fan here and there that seemed interested in what I had to say, in my opinions, but they were few and far between.  I still persisted in saying my piece about controversial topics of the day, but most comments or tweets I received back were usually of the ‘put your mouth to better use and suck my cock’ variety, than reasoned thoughts.  My favourite blog follower rarely put in an appearance, but when he did his words were always a balm to my soul.  He took on the nastiest of my haters with such eloquence and stalwart support.  I always replied and tried coaxing him into a conversation, but he was either too shy or rarely online as he never entered into any discussions with me.

Part 3 - Do you feel it?

As soon as I opened the door, I saw the twin beds in front of me and a tall, gorgeous drink of water leaping to his feet to greet me. Flash looked very familiar but I was struggling to remember where I would have known him from. He’d told me he’d worked in customer service so maybe he’d graced the reception of a hotel I’d stayed in or a shop I’d been to previously. The startling blue of his eyes which were highlighted by the darkness of his hair, drawn back away from his face, was most unsettling. I’d swear that I’d seen them before and recently. I had no time to ponder our possible earlier encounter though, as Flash simultaneously gripped my right hand in his to shake, and leaned in to clasp his other arm around me in a man-hug.

“Edward, it’s so good to finally meet you, man. I’ve been looking forward to this for months,” He murmured against the skin of my neck. I shivered at the contact and leaned into his hug.

Well clung more like it. Flash smelled so damn good and felt even better.

 The link to the 3 chapters posted on is here.
beans827 has also written 2 one-shots herself, one a collab with me for the Jekyll & Hyde contest. She has started on a third, a baseball orientated one-shot, so show her some belated birthday love and check them out here.
Suz xxx

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Fandom Fights Tsunami Compilation

As everyone knows a devastating Earthquake and Tsunami hit the coast of Japan in March. With so much devastation and loss of life, the fandom has come together to raise money to help this country recover.  Almost 300 fanfiction writers across a number of fandoms have contributed stories to to make up a compilation, which will be emailed on 20 May 2011 to people who donate a minumum of $10 to the Red Cross up until 1 July 2011.

Here is the link to view the fandom4tsunami blog, and here is the link to Red Cross if you would like to donate. Don't forget to email a copy of the receipt to

I have contributed a one-shot to the compilation called Guardian Angel.

Thank you to vbfb1 for the lovely banner, which I absolutely adore.


Eleazar had lived a happy and fulfilled life, so when he suddenly passed, he was determined that would be his legacy for Edward and Bella, two people who had made the last years of his life so rewarding. The problem: They had yet to meet and had no plans to do so.



Eleazar shook his head disgustedly as he contemplated his two protégés. How the hell did two intelligent, attractive human beings get it so wrong? One had been in a disastrous first marriage, and, since its tumultuous ending, had been single for more than four years, too afraid to dip his toes into the water again. The other was as yet untouched by love, the lukewarm relationships she’d had before were filler, nothing more. Eleazar was running out of patience.

When he was alive, he’d given them ample opportunities to meet, but his carefully thought out plans had always come to naught. For some reason or other, something had always come up and one would not be available when the other one was. He knew that they would be perfect together and was frustrated that he’d never been able to even get them in the same room while he was living.

Edward wasn’t looking forward to working with Isabella Swan either. Her name alone sounded rather pretentious, and he’d worked damn hard over the years to avoid meeting her, especially since Eleazar kept pushing the issue. Edward knew exactly what he’d hoped to achieve by getting them in the same room, but he hardly trusted Eleazar’s judgement regarding suitable women after his less than stellar experiences with Tanya.

He dialed the number noted on Eleazar’s paperwork, and as he waited for the connection, he absentmindedly thought about the woman he’d seen a few times at the shelter. She was very pretty rather than stunning, but with a gentle manner that seemed to draw him in. She was, in fact, the complete opposite of his ice queen ex-wife. He’d first seen her sitting in the common room, surrounded by a multitude of little children staring raptly at her, as she painstakingly showed them how to create art with items from the garden like leaves and flowers, and even a few small twigs. He’d been drawn to peek into the room by the sound of mirth issuing forth and he was curious as to who the tinkling sound belonged to.

The next morning as Bella walked into her office right on the dot of eight am, Jessica was springing up, fresh coffee in hand and all the messages and urgent matters that needed to be looked at before her day fully started. As she flicked through them, she noticed a telephone message from one Edward Cullen. Ah yes. She’d been expecting his call for the last day or so, but dreading it all the same. She was anxious to do a good job on Eleazar’s estate work but at the same time she really was not looking forward to working with this Edward Cullen.

Eleazar had been singing his praises for years and was always trying to get them in the same room. Bella swore Eleazor expected them to take one look at each other and fall madly in love on sight, just because he thought they would be good together. Bella had never had the heart to point out the failed marriage of his own daughter to this guy, was evidence of the fact that he had no idea what he was talking about.

They had barely lasted six months, and from what little Bella had seen of Eleazar’s daughter, she knew Tanya was hardly likely to go for the kind, generous-hearted type from the shelter. No, her tastes ran to the more exotic European man, and apparently each and every one of her tennis coaches over the years. She did not hold out much hope of a speedy resolution of this matter. After seeing the mess of a will, and her expectations of the type of man that Tanya Denali would be interested in, she knew she would have her work cut out for her.

Suz xxx

Monday, February 21, 2011

Contribution to Fandoms Fight the Floods - Covetous

I have been very busy lately with writing for a few fundraising efforts, this time for one very close to my heart as it involved flooding in my home state of Queensland, Australia that affected family and friends personally. 

The fundraiser blog is here and contains information on where to donate to be eligible for this compilation of one-shot fics from over 170 fandom writers.

Queensland, Australia suffered terrible floods in the month of January which covered an area roughly the size of Texas.  Since this fundraiser commenced, northern Queensland also suffered through a Category 5 Cyclone which also caused flooding in Victoria , a southern state of Australia.  It is estimated that it will take over 2 years to rebuild after such huge losses so your donations to this cause are much appreciated.

I chose to write an epilogue for Covet, my entry in the 'In the Closet' contest - it was a vamp slash one-shot and many reviewers wondered what happened here it is - well the teaser anyway. To see the whole fic please donate and you will receive as part of the compilation.  The story will post on my fanfiction profile sometime in June. 

If you haven't read the original one-shot, Covet, and would like to, you can read it here.

Banner made by the lovely vbfb19 - to see more of her work click here.

Summary: For fifty years, Jasper had been torn between his secret love for Edward, his mate and his duty to Alice, his wife, for saving his soul.  Now, by a twist of fate, Jasper is free to be with Edward and learns just how covetous his mate can be.


"Alice let me into her mind this morning,” he told me sombrely. “She showed me everything she’s been having visions of since she met the family; and please, believe me when I tell you that she didn't want to deceive you, Jasper. It was truly the only way for us to be together as well as for her and Bella to be together. She showed me some of the outcomes if she had done things differently and it wasn’t pretty. I can barely stand to think what I would have done to that harmless little child if we’d come to Forks any earlier than we did.” Edward shuddered as he relived Alice’s vision.

“I do believe you, Edward. It’s just been so much to take in. After all these years of waiting and hoping, suddenly everything has changed for us overnight and I can’t help but feel that this is all a dream that I will wake up from. I feel a little afraid of happiness being snatched away right in front of me again. I’m still in shock and can’t seem to shake this feeling that something will go wrong.”

Edward’s mood shifted suddenly from almost euphoric to downright melancholy at my words. I felt terrible, bursting his bubble of happiness and wished I’d kept my thoughts to myself.

Edward snorted at that! Yeah, fat lot of good that would have done when I’m in love with a mind-reader!

"And he’s desperately in love with you, too.” Edward spoke fervently, his eyes glittering with something; an intensity and openness that I’d yet to see in them before. Normally, his gaze, although loving when we were alone, looked tortured and resigned to a love unfulfilled.

I am such a dick! We’ve only waited an excruciatingly long fifty odd years to be together in truth and I fuck everything up within the first few minutes. We should be rejoicing at our good fortune, this chance to start a new life together and explore the world as the mated couple we should have been from the start.

Edward was shaking his head at my thoughts, but I needed to say this out loud. I needed to fix what my errant worries had caused. No more shall I bring those dark shadows to Edward’s eyes or the deepest depths of misery to his heart. I shifted in my seat, bringing me closer to Edward and my free hand reached to gently cup his jaw, my lips placed feather light kisses along its chiselled length.

"Fuck, Edward! I’m so sorry. I’m such a fool. Of course I’m happy to be with you, ecstatically happy and I can’t wait to start our lives together. I’ve had to hide my love for you far too long and I can think of nothing better than spending the rest of eternity with you.”

Thankfully, I could feel the uncertainty receding from Edward’s emotions at my words and thoughts. At that moment, I knew what I wanted…no, what I needed to make me believe this was real and not a wonderful dream I would awaken from.

“Edward, I’d really like to stop if we can for a little while. Things have moved too fast this morning and I am a little bit of a mess actually. I need to feel your arms around me, to ground me…to center me. Is that okay?”

Edward nodded thoughtfully and then jerked the steering wheel sharply to the left, steering the Volvo into a secluded turnoff deep within the forest alongside the highway heading into Seattle. As Edward switched off the ignition, he turned to me and took my face into his hands, smiling as he gently took my lips in a soft slow kiss.

With the first brush of his lips against mine, his long fingers stroking my jaw, everything else simply fell away; it was just the two of us in this moment and would be every moment thereafter.

"Jasper, I've waited so long for this. I’ve dreamed of what it would be like to be with you fully and openly; to be able to proclaim you as my mate and lover to the entire world. It's all so surreal! This is the best day of my life next to the day you walked into it. I love you with all my heart and soul and to be able to kiss you and touch you and make love to you when you're mine and mine alone is everything to me.”

“Everything,” he whispered into my ear reverently.

Suz xxxxx

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Fandom against Domestic Violence (FaDV) compilation - Heart of Glass

Hi Followers,

I have just contributed a one-shot to the Fandom against Domestic Violence compilation.  To see the other authors and more information about the fundraiser, visit the blog here. The compilation of over 100 stories is available for anyone who makes a donation of $10 or more to the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence during the month of February 2011  here and then sends a copy of the donation receipt to

The National Coalition page also has a lot of information for women, men & children in a domestic violence situation as well as ways others can help.

This is a cause close to my heart.  I left an abusive relationship with two small children and $20 to my name only through the support of close family and friends. Not everybody has that support and tragedies can and do occur every day.

A Teaser and Banner for my contribution - Heart of Glass

Banner made by the sexy Robrator. To see more of her banner work go here.

Two shattered hearts. Bella is lonely and scared after escaping a violent marriage with two children and a mountain of debt. Edward is jaded and lonely after a stinging betrayal. Can caring for a sick little boy be the glue that puts them back together?


Today was not going to be a good day. To start with, my employers at the stationery wholesale outlet were not very happy that I was taking another half day to take Riley to see the Paediatrician for more tests. It’s not like I didn’t have the time up my sleeve, and I was taking the time as part of my vacation time, which I was fully entitled to.

On top of that, Dr. Volturi had called me to say that he was taking a six months sabbatical to Europe with his wife, and that he had organised a locum to take over his patients for the duration of his absence. He assured me that the locum was highly qualified and that he had gone over Riley’s case file very meticulously with the new doctor. I knew I shouldn’t be worried but I couldn’t help it. Finally I had found a doctor I could put faith into and now he was gone.

I worked the morning at the office, run off my feet, trying to fit a full day’s work into four hours and then after picking up Riley from school, barely made it to the hospital in time for our appointment to see the new doctor. Dr Cullen I think his name is.

The Doctor’s receptionist and her assistant seemed all aflutter, and the mood, although usually upbeat anyway, was positively electric today. From thinking I was going to run late, to cooling my heels in the waiting room for what seemed like forever, I started to notice the odd behaviour of some of the moms exiting the doctor’s office. Was I the only woman not wearing a low cut or partially unbuttoned shirt and an itty bitty skirt today?

Finally it was Riley’s turn, and I could see what all the fuss was about as soon as the receptionist showed us into to the Doctor’s office and introduced us. Edward Cullen was the most singularly attractive man I had ever seen, and he had eyes for no one but my son. Even though this was the same office where we had met Dr Volturi, it felt different with the presence of a different doctor. Nothing was out of place or changed from when I was here, but I felt different. Now, instead of worry for my son, I felt uncomfortably aware of the attractiveness of the good Doctor with his distinctive shock of bronze-colored hair and the most unusual green eyes.

As soon as we were settled in the comfortable chairs next to the Doctor’s desk, Dr. Cullen turned to Riley and said. “Now, Riley, what seems to be the problem?”

I started to list all the symptoms but Dr Cullen raised his finger to his lips and shushed me. Yes…he damn well shushed me.

I opened my mouth to express my displeasure when he leaned closer to Riley and faux whispered, “Oh dear, your mom thinks her name’s Riley. I think she has a case of mistaken identity, what do you think?” and wiggled his eyebrows.

If you are unable to contribute to the cause, don't worry - the one-shot will be posted to my profile in the middle of March sometime after the fundraiser is over.


Suz xxxxx

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Teaser - Chapter 14 - Scent of a Woman - Repercussions

Unbelievable as it may seem - yes the next chapter of Scent is off with my beta to pretty it up. While we're waiting, here is a little tease:

From Chapter 13-

The next few minutes were a blur. I remember Edward suddenly jerking his head around towards Alice on the other side of the car and glaring at her. They both just as quickly jerked back towards me and Edward yelled something out to me but a noisy engine and a squeal of tires drowned out his words.

Edward’s arm shot out pointing at something behind me and as if in slow motion, I wheeled around and saw a large blue van careening across the ice straight towards me. Unlike my truck, my feet were not well equipped to deal with an icy surface and as I moved to get out of the way, they failed me. I started sliding and then scrabbling in fear for my life, making me desperate. Out of nowhere, something slammed into my left side and I hit the ground hard, my skull bouncing on the icy cold surface and then there was just nothing but blissful blackness.

I think I must have been dreaming but I could swear there was a faint scent of pine trees, strong arms gently holding me, cold lips caressing my forehead and a whispered litany of words over and over “Not again…please God…not again.”

Tease for Chapter 14: (unbeta'd)

Emmett snapped me out of my morose thoughts by slapping me on the back and giving me a bear hug just before I got into the Volvo. “You will be fine today, little bro! We’ve got your back!”

Why had I never noticed before how much Emmett looks out for me and for the rest of the family? His eternal optimism is actually quite uplifting and I resolve to start the day as I mean it to continue – confident in my ability to pull this off. I hug Emmett back and note his surprise at the feel of my arms around him, squeezing him a little more than was comfortable.

I grin and slip into my seat, Alice and Jasper already buckled in and ready to go. Alice knows something but is taking my request to heart. At the moment instead of giving me a sneak peak of my day she is naming every variation of the color blue. I chuckle at her choice, remembering Bella’s silky blue panties, hidden inside my own underwear drawer, the analogy not lost on me at all.

Once Emmett and Rosalie are ready to go in the Jeep parked alongside, I turn the key in the ignition and jump at the music blaring out of my car speakers. Alice! Muse’s Feeling Good assaults my eardrums and I outright laugh. Both Alice and Jasper do a double take at the happy sound and smile almost as wide as I am. As I drive towards school, all of us hum along until the chorus and then all burst into song at the sheer joy we are feeling…it’s addictive!

It's a new dawn

It's a new day

It's a new life

For me

And I’m feeling good

Alice and I are tapping the drum beats out on the dash and Jasper on the back of my seat as we pull into the school parking lot moments after Bella in her truck. I sit there for a moment to collect myself, taking a deep breath I don’t need before I step out of the Volvo and turn to towards Bella.

She is standing there at the door of her truck, her backpack slung over her shoulders and her hands full with gloves and her iPod. She acknowledges me with a smile and I am transfixed at the sight of her standing there watching at me. I can feel my lips curve upwards of their own volition in response to her avid perusal, it isn’t a conscious action.

Despite the fact that I was by her side only hours ago, I’m instantly drawn to her, instinctively needing to be by her side, to keep her safe and free from harm. I know it’s irrational – I mean really what harm could befall her in a school parking lot surrounded by a ton of students on a day like every other day. I couldn’t help feeling this way though; it’s not as if fate has been kind to me in the matter of love and my soul mate. Time and again the love of my life has been ripped from my life and I am paranoid that it will happen again.

dun dun dun ......

Suz xoxoxoxo