Fandom4Texas Fundraiser Contribution - The Demon Within

In 2011, Texas has lost more land to wildfires than every other state in the U.S. combined. Since the current fire season began, Texas Forest Service and area fire departments have responded to 22,602 fires that have burned 3,761,966 acres. Thousands of Texans have lost their homes, businesses, pets, and even family members in the worst fires Texas has seen in our recorded history.


Everyone who sends Fandom4Texas a donation receipt, dated Sept 5th 2011 or later, of least $5 to one of the below relief agencies will receive a compilation of fanfiction and original stories from over 175 authors.

To read more about this tragedy or to donate money to a listed charity go here.  There are just over 2 days left to donate to receive the compilation.

My contribution for the fundraiser is a one-shot called The Demon Within, inspired by the song Demon Seed by Nine Inch Nails.  The beautiful banner below has been made by the lovely vbfb1, and I have included a teaser for the story.

Summary:
Edward suppressed his need for human blood decades ago and has lived a good and virtuous life since then.  Will his unparalleled desire for Bella’s blood unleash his demons once more?  AU.

Teaser:
I try to resist your charms. ...


God knows how I try.

Countless hours wrapped up in your scent. The aroma of your blood and of your body, driving me crazy little by little, until the sanity I claw onto is hanging by a thread. A tenuous thread of love and respect and humanity which is shredding until, as I fear, there is but a single twine left. A tiny remnant that will snap and splinter like glass shards with the smallest of encouragement from you.

…

I warn you.

God knows how often I tell you.

Never-ending conversations about my true nature, about what I really am deep inside, dark and monstrous, regardless of my sparkling external casing. You never believe me yet the consequences of what you ask for are unknown. I’ve tried to prepare you as much as I can, but in the end the decision is yours and I will acquiesce this time. I have crumbled against your persistence, because deep down I crave it too.



If you aren't able to contribute to the fundraiser, the one-shot will be available on fanfiction.net on January 1, 2012.

Suz xx

New drabble fic - Splendour Mine

Hi again,

I just realised I'd drafted this last post before I started posting the new fic and I haven't had the chance to get back to upload it.  Due to the high level of interest in Garrett and Jasper from my drabble fic, Beautiful Tyrant, and that it's not very appropriate to go into too much detail of their relationship in that story, I decided to write this seperate story all about them (in and amongst the main story).

Five chapters have been posted already providing some back story.  The back story will continue until Chapter 13, after which the chapters posted will link to the same time frame as Beautiful Tyrant.

vbfb1 made me this fabulous banner and I love it.  It inspires me each and every time I look at it:

Link to fic here.

Suz xxx

Week 7 Pic Tease for Beautiful Tyrant

 This week its all about the Cullen boys and an invitation....and a little secret revealed!

An enormous thank you to vbfb1 for the fic banner and for each weekly pic tease - she does such a marvelous job - check out her other banners here.

Next Week - Bella dominates the page :-)

Suz xxx

Weekly Pic Teases 5&6 of Beautiful Tyrant

Oops....Real Life hit me hard the last two weeks and never got a chance to update the blog until now - here are the pic teases for Week 5 - Garrett tries to get to the bottom of Edward's melancholy - and Week 6 - Charlie and Mike Newton discuss his plans for Bella....

Suz xxx

Week 4 Pic Tease - Beautiful Tyrant

This week is all about Edward, which I'm positive will make readers v happy.  vbfb1 is making me these fantastic weekly pic teases plus the original banners.

Week 4 starts posting in 10 hours

Suz xxx

Week 3 Pic Tease - Beautiful Tyrant

Here is the pic tease for this weeks Beautiful Tyrant updates:

Suz xx

Beautiful Tyrant - Weekly Pic Tease

The pic tease for this weeks daily drabble posts made by vbfb1:

And last week's which I tweeted but couldn't post here:

Suz xxx

Beautiful Tyrant - new daily drabble fic

Quite out of the blue an idea for a drabble fic popped into my head and wouldn't be stuffed back into the plot bunny folder.  I'm quite excited about it and to date have written a month's worth of drabbles in advance of posting.  The story has been inspired by Shakespeare's Romeo & Juliet.

Beautiful Tryrant will start posting next Saturday 23 June and then continue daily with one post a day.

Here is a little tease for the story:

Banner made by the talented vbfb1 - to see more of her work click here.

Summary:



A modern day story of a Romeo and his Juliet.  A tale of love and woe told in 100 word daily drabbles. Will this love affair end in tragedy too?  Edward and Bella.  AH.

Starting this Wednesday and continuing each Wednesday after that I will post a pic tease for the next week's updates (made by the lovely and talented vbfb1).

Stay tuned.  

Suz xxxx

Happy Birthday!

It was my beta's birthday yesterday, 15 July - Happy Birthday beans827 - and because she means so much to me, I decided to write her a little story for her birthday present which included some of her favourite things.  I stumbled across beans on a twilighted thread offering beta services late in 2009 and clicking on the reply button was the best decision ever.  Beans has had to put up with a lot over the last 18mths  - not enought comma's, then too many comma's and to this day I still manage to switch tenses part way through chapters.  I'm sure it drives her crazy but she is always gracious, and hasn't turfed me for being too much of a pain in the arse, yet!

Apart from being my long suffering beta, beans has become a very good friend and we chat daily along with pyjammies, who beans introduced me to.  Pyjammies stepped up to beta this little fic, of course at the last minute, because as per usual my idea of nice little one-shot turned into a 3 chap mini-fic and I finished it and posted it on FF on the day. Thank you P :-)

So, in honour of bean's birthday and her love of Edward and Jasper (together, together) and our own little crush - here is Little Blue Heart:

This gorgeous banner was made by the talented, and lovely, vbfb1 - links to her work here.

Summary:

A scientist with a little crush. A porn star looking for more. Whatever could these two have in common? Slash EdwardxJasper A little birthday fic for beans827

Exerpts:

Part 1 - Just a litte crush

Just because I knew some little known facts about a gorgeous, lean, twink porn star, did not mean I was a stalker.  I knew these things because I was interested in the enigma that was Jazz Hale and not just for his bleached blond hair, award-winning peen and round-cheeked ass.  He was soft-hearted, wickedly funny and smart.  When he smiled, and looked deep into the camera with those amazing blue eyes, something twisted in my chest as much as it caused my cock to harden and my balls to pull up. 

Part 2 - More than meets the eye

Outwardly I had performed for the cameras as if nothing was wrong, but inside I was slowly dying.  My blond, outgoing, porn persona, Jazz Hale, loved sex and loved performing for the camera, but the whole time I was getting fucked, I was secretly wishing that people were as interested in my brain as they were in my asshole.    I had the odd fan here and there that seemed interested in what I had to say, in my opinions, but they were few and far between.  I still persisted in saying my piece about controversial topics of the day, but most comments or tweets I received back were usually of the ‘put your mouth to better use and suck my cock’ variety, than reasoned thoughts.  My favourite blog follower rarely put in an appearance, but when he did his words were always a balm to my soul.  He took on the nastiest of my haters with such eloquence and stalwart support.  I always replied and tried coaxing him into a conversation, but he was either too shy or rarely online as he never entered into any discussions with me.

Part 3 - Do you feel it?

As soon as I opened the door, I saw the twin beds in front of me and a tall, gorgeous drink of water leaping to his feet to greet me. Flash looked very familiar but I was struggling to remember where I would have known him from. He’d told me he’d worked in customer service so maybe he’d graced the reception of a hotel I’d stayed in or a shop I’d been to previously. The startling blue of his eyes which were highlighted by the darkness of his hair, drawn back away from his face, was most unsettling. I’d swear that I’d seen them before and recently. I had no time to ponder our possible earlier encounter though, as Flash simultaneously gripped my right hand in his to shake, and leaned in to clasp his other arm around me in a man-hug.



“Edward, it’s so good to finally meet you, man. I’ve been looking forward to this for months,” He murmured against the skin of my neck. I shivered at the contact and leaned into his hug.


Well clung more like it. Flash smelled so damn good and felt even better.

 The link to the 3 chapters posted on fanfiction.net.au is here.
 
beans827 has also written 2 one-shots herself, one a collab with me for the Jekyll & Hyde contest. She has started on a third, a baseball orientated one-shot, so show her some belated birthday love and check them out here.
 
Suz xxx

Fandom Fights Tsunami Compilation

As everyone knows a devastating Earthquake and Tsunami hit the coast of Japan in March. With so much devastation and loss of life, the fandom has come together to raise money to help this country recover.  Almost 300 fanfiction writers across a number of fandoms have contributed stories to to make up a compilation, which will be emailed on 20 May 2011 to people who donate a minumum of $10 to the Red Cross up until 1 July 2011.

Here is the link to view the fandom4tsunami blog, and here is the link to Red Cross if you would like to donate. Don't forget to email a copy of the receipt to fandom4tsunami@gmail.com

I have contributed a one-shot to the compilation called Guardian Angel.

Thank you to vbfb1 for the lovely banner, which I absolutely adore.

Summary:

Eleazar had lived a happy and fulfilled life, so when he suddenly passed, he was determined that would be his legacy for Edward and Bella, two people who had made the last years of his life so rewarding. The problem: They had yet to meet and had no plans to do so.

Tease:

Eleazar

Eleazar shook his head disgustedly as he contemplated his two protégés. How the hell did two intelligent, attractive human beings get it so wrong? One had been in a disastrous first marriage, and, since its tumultuous ending, had been single for more than four years, too afraid to dip his toes into the water again. The other was as yet untouched by love, the lukewarm relationships she’d had before were filler, nothing more. Eleazar was running out of patience.


When he was alive, he’d given them ample opportunities to meet, but his carefully thought out plans had always come to naught. For some reason or other, something had always come up and one would not be available when the other one was. He knew that they would be perfect together and was frustrated that he’d never been able to even get them in the same room while he was living.

Edward
 
Edward wasn’t looking forward to working with Isabella Swan either. Her name alone sounded rather pretentious, and he’d worked damn hard over the years to avoid meeting her, especially since Eleazar kept pushing the issue. Edward knew exactly what he’d hoped to achieve by getting them in the same room, but he hardly trusted Eleazar’s judgement regarding suitable women after his less than stellar experiences with Tanya.


He dialed the number noted on Eleazar’s paperwork, and as he waited for the connection, he absentmindedly thought about the woman he’d seen a few times at the shelter. She was very pretty rather than stunning, but with a gentle manner that seemed to draw him in. She was, in fact, the complete opposite of his ice queen ex-wife. He’d first seen her sitting in the common room, surrounded by a multitude of little children staring raptly at her, as she painstakingly showed them how to create art with items from the garden like leaves and flowers, and even a few small twigs. He’d been drawn to peek into the room by the sound of mirth issuing forth and he was curious as to who the tinkling sound belonged to.

 
Bella
 
The next morning as Bella walked into her office right on the dot of eight am, Jessica was springing up, fresh coffee in hand and all the messages and urgent matters that needed to be looked at before her day fully started. As she flicked through them, she noticed a telephone message from one Edward Cullen. Ah yes. She’d been expecting his call for the last day or so, but dreading it all the same. She was anxious to do a good job on Eleazar’s estate work but at the same time she really was not looking forward to working with this Edward Cullen.


Eleazar had been singing his praises for years and was always trying to get them in the same room. Bella swore Eleazor expected them to take one look at each other and fall madly in love on sight, just because he thought they would be good together. Bella had never had the heart to point out the failed marriage of his own daughter to this guy, was evidence of the fact that he had no idea what he was talking about.

They had barely lasted six months, and from what little Bella had seen of Eleazar’s daughter, she knew Tanya was hardly likely to go for the kind, generous-hearted type from the shelter. No, her tastes ran to the more exotic European man, and apparently each and every one of her tennis coaches over the years. She did not hold out much hope of a speedy resolution of this matter. After seeing the mess of a will, and her expectations of the type of man that Tanya Denali would be interested in, she knew she would have her work cut out for her.

 

********************

 

Suz xxx



Contribution to Fandoms Fight the Floods - Covetous

I have been very busy lately with writing for a few fundraising efforts, this time for one very close to my heart as it involved flooding in my home state of Queensland, Australia that affected family and friends personally. 



The fundraiser blog is here and contains information on where to donate to be eligible for this compilation of one-shot fics from over 170 fandom writers.

Queensland, Australia suffered terrible floods in the month of January which covered an area roughly the size of Texas.  Since this fundraiser commenced, northern Queensland also suffered through a Category 5 Cyclone which also caused flooding in Victoria , a southern state of Australia.  It is estimated that it will take over 2 years to rebuild after such huge losses so your donations to this cause are much appreciated.

I chose to write an epilogue for Covet, my entry in the 'In the Closet' contest - it was a vamp slash one-shot and many reviewers wondered what happened next....so here it is - well the teaser anyway. To see the whole fic please donate and you will receive as part of the compilation.  The story will post on my fanfiction profile sometime in June. 

If you haven't read the original one-shot, Covet, and would like to, you can read it here.

Banner made by the lovely vbfb19 - to see more of her work click here.

Summary: For fifty years, Jasper had been torn between his secret love for Edward, his mate and his duty to Alice, his wife, for saving his soul.  Now, by a twist of fate, Jasper is free to be with Edward and learns just how covetous his mate can be.

Teaser:

"Alice let me into her mind this morning,” he told me sombrely. “She showed me everything she’s been having visions of since she met the family; and please, believe me when I tell you that she didn't want to deceive you, Jasper. It was truly the only way for us to be together as well as for her and Bella to be together. She showed me some of the outcomes if she had done things differently and it wasn’t pretty. I can barely stand to think what I would have done to that harmless little child if we’d come to Forks any earlier than we did.” Edward shuddered as he relived Alice’s vision.



“I do believe you, Edward. It’s just been so much to take in. After all these years of waiting and hoping, suddenly everything has changed for us overnight and I can’t help but feel that this is all a dream that I will wake up from. I feel a little afraid of happiness being snatched away right in front of me again. I’m still in shock and can’t seem to shake this feeling that something will go wrong.”


Edward’s mood shifted suddenly from almost euphoric to downright melancholy at my words. I felt terrible, bursting his bubble of happiness and wished I’d kept my thoughts to myself.


Edward snorted at that! Yeah, fat lot of good that would have done when I’m in love with a mind-reader!


"And he’s desperately in love with you, too.” Edward spoke fervently, his eyes glittering with something; an intensity and openness that I’d yet to see in them before. Normally, his gaze, although loving when we were alone, looked tortured and resigned to a love unfulfilled.


I am such a dick! We’ve only waited an excruciatingly long fifty odd years to be together in truth and I fuck everything up within the first few minutes. We should be rejoicing at our good fortune, this chance to start a new life together and explore the world as the mated couple we should have been from the start.


Edward was shaking his head at my thoughts, but I needed to say this out loud. I needed to fix what my errant worries had caused. No more shall I bring those dark shadows to Edward’s eyes or the deepest depths of misery to his heart. I shifted in my seat, bringing me closer to Edward and my free hand reached to gently cup his jaw, my lips placed feather light kisses along its chiselled length.


"Fuck, Edward! I’m so sorry. I’m such a fool. Of course I’m happy to be with you, ecstatically happy and I can’t wait to start our lives together. I’ve had to hide my love for you far too long and I can think of nothing better than spending the rest of eternity with you.”


Thankfully, I could feel the uncertainty receding from Edward’s emotions at my words and thoughts. At that moment, I knew what I wanted…no, what I needed to make me believe this was real and not a wonderful dream I would awaken from.


“Edward, I’d really like to stop if we can for a little while. Things have moved too fast this morning and I am a little bit of a mess actually. I need to feel your arms around me, to ground me…to center me. Is that okay?”


Edward nodded thoughtfully and then jerked the steering wheel sharply to the left, steering the Volvo into a secluded turnoff deep within the forest alongside the highway heading into Seattle. As Edward switched off the ignition, he turned to me and took my face into his hands, smiling as he gently took my lips in a soft slow kiss.


With the first brush of his lips against mine, his long fingers stroking my jaw, everything else simply fell away; it was just the two of us in this moment and would be every moment thereafter.


"Jasper, I've waited so long for this. I’ve dreamed of what it would be like to be with you fully and openly; to be able to proclaim you as my mate and lover to the entire world. It's all so surreal! This is the best day of my life next to the day you walked into it. I love you with all my heart and soul and to be able to kiss you and touch you and make love to you when you're mine and mine alone is everything to me.”


“Everything,” he whispered into my ear reverently.

Suz xxxxx

Fandom against Domestic Violence (FaDV) compilation - Heart of Glass

Hi Followers,

I have just contributed a one-shot to the Fandom against Domestic Violence compilation.  To see the other authors and more information about the fundraiser, visit the blog here. The compilation of over 100 stories is available for anyone who makes a donation of $10 or more to the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence during the month of February 2011  here and then sends a copy of the donation receipt to  fandomagainstdomesticviolence@gmail.com

The National Coalition page also has a lot of information for women, men & children in a domestic violence situation as well as ways others can help.

This is a cause close to my heart.  I left an abusive relationship with two small children and $20 to my name only through the support of close family and friends. Not everybody has that support and tragedies can and do occur every day.

A Teaser and Banner for my contribution - Heart of Glass

Banner made by the sexy Robrator. To see more of her banner work go here.

Summary:

Two shattered hearts. Bella is lonely and scared after escaping a violent marriage with two children and a mountain of debt. Edward is jaded and lonely after a stinging betrayal. Can caring for a sick little boy be the glue that puts them back together?

Tease:

Today was not going to be a good day. To start with, my employers at the stationery wholesale outlet were not very happy that I was taking another half day to take Riley to see the Paediatrician for more tests. It’s not like I didn’t have the time up my sleeve, and I was taking the time as part of my vacation time, which I was fully entitled to.


On top of that, Dr. Volturi had called me to say that he was taking a six months sabbatical to Europe with his wife, and that he had organised a locum to take over his patients for the duration of his absence. He assured me that the locum was highly qualified and that he had gone over Riley’s case file very meticulously with the new doctor. I knew I shouldn’t be worried but I couldn’t help it. Finally I had found a doctor I could put faith into and now he was gone.


I worked the morning at the office, run off my feet, trying to fit a full day’s work into four hours and then after picking up Riley from school, barely made it to the hospital in time for our appointment to see the new doctor. Dr Cullen I think his name is.


The Doctor’s receptionist and her assistant seemed all aflutter, and the mood, although usually upbeat anyway, was positively electric today. From thinking I was going to run late, to cooling my heels in the waiting room for what seemed like forever, I started to notice the odd behaviour of some of the moms exiting the doctor’s office. Was I the only woman not wearing a low cut or partially unbuttoned shirt and an itty bitty skirt today?


Finally it was Riley’s turn, and I could see what all the fuss was about as soon as the receptionist showed us into to the Doctor’s office and introduced us. Edward Cullen was the most singularly attractive man I had ever seen, and he had eyes for no one but my son. Even though this was the same office where we had met Dr Volturi, it felt different with the presence of a different doctor. Nothing was out of place or changed from when I was here, but I felt different. Now, instead of worry for my son, I felt uncomfortably aware of the attractiveness of the good Doctor with his distinctive shock of bronze-colored hair and the most unusual green eyes.


As soon as we were settled in the comfortable chairs next to the Doctor’s desk, Dr. Cullen turned to Riley and said. “Now, Riley, what seems to be the problem?”


I started to list all the symptoms but Dr Cullen raised his finger to his lips and shushed me. Yes…he damn well shushed me.


I opened my mouth to express my displeasure when he leaned closer to Riley and faux whispered, “Oh dear, your mom thinks her name’s Riley. I think she has a case of mistaken identity, what do you think?” and wiggled his eyebrows.

If you are unable to contribute to the cause, don't worry - the one-shot will be posted to my profile in the middle of March sometime after the fundraiser is over.

Hugs

Suz xxxxx

Teaser - Chapter 14 - Scent of a Woman - Repercussions

Unbelievable as it may seem - yes the next chapter of Scent is off with my beta to pretty it up. While we're waiting, here is a little tease:

From Chapter 13-


The next few minutes were a blur. I remember Edward suddenly jerking his head around towards Alice on the other side of the car and glaring at her. They both just as quickly jerked back towards me and Edward yelled something out to me but a noisy engine and a squeal of tires drowned out his words.


Edward’s arm shot out pointing at something behind me and as if in slow motion, I wheeled around and saw a large blue van careening across the ice straight towards me. Unlike my truck, my feet were not well equipped to deal with an icy surface and as I moved to get out of the way, they failed me. I started sliding and then scrabbling in fear for my life, making me desperate. Out of nowhere, something slammed into my left side and I hit the ground hard, my skull bouncing on the icy cold surface and then there was just nothing but blissful blackness.


I think I must have been dreaming but I could swear there was a faint scent of pine trees, strong arms gently holding me, cold lips caressing my forehead and a whispered litany of words over and over “Not again…please God…not again.”

Tease for Chapter 14: (unbeta'd)

Emmett snapped me out of my morose thoughts by slapping me on the back and giving me a bear hug just before I got into the Volvo. “You will be fine today, little bro! We’ve got your back!”


Why had I never noticed before how much Emmett looks out for me and for the rest of the family? His eternal optimism is actually quite uplifting and I resolve to start the day as I mean it to continue – confident in my ability to pull this off. I hug Emmett back and note his surprise at the feel of my arms around him, squeezing him a little more than was comfortable.

I grin and slip into my seat, Alice and Jasper already buckled in and ready to go. Alice knows something but is taking my request to heart. At the moment instead of giving me a sneak peak of my day she is naming every variation of the color blue. I chuckle at her choice, remembering Bella’s silky blue panties, hidden inside my own underwear drawer, the analogy not lost on me at all.

Once Emmett and Rosalie are ready to go in the Jeep parked alongside, I turn the key in the ignition and jump at the music blaring out of my car speakers. Alice! Muse’s Feeling Good assaults my eardrums and I outright laugh. Both Alice and Jasper do a double take at the happy sound and smile almost as wide as I am. As I drive towards school, all of us hum along until the chorus and then all burst into song at the sheer joy we are feeling…it’s addictive!

It's a new dawn

It's a new day

It's a new life

For me

And I’m feeling good

Alice and I are tapping the drum beats out on the dash and Jasper on the back of my seat as we pull into the school parking lot moments after Bella in her truck. I sit there for a moment to collect myself, taking a deep breath I don’t need before I step out of the Volvo and turn to towards Bella.

She is standing there at the door of her truck, her backpack slung over her shoulders and her hands full with gloves and her iPod. She acknowledges me with a smile and I am transfixed at the sight of her standing there watching at me. I can feel my lips curve upwards of their own volition in response to her avid perusal, it isn’t a conscious action.

Despite the fact that I was by her side only hours ago, I’m instantly drawn to her, instinctively needing to be by her side, to keep her safe and free from harm. I know it’s irrational – I mean really what harm could befall her in a school parking lot surrounded by a ton of students on a day like every other day. I couldn’t help feeling this way though; it’s not as if fate has been kind to me in the matter of love and my soul mate. Time and again the love of my life has been ripped from my life and I am paranoid that it will happen again.

dun dun dun ......

Suz xoxoxoxo

Fandom for Preemies - Mistress of My Heart - to be continued...

I have just posted my contribution to the Fandom for Preemies compilation - Mistress of my Heart.  This one-shot is now being extended into a full length fic after Christmas....

Summary: No one would accuse Edward of having a submissive personality but when he believes that Bella is leaving him for his own good he’s determined to do anything to keep Bella in his life…even if it means relinquishing complete control to the love of his life.

I have 3 banners for the story and can't choose between them so all 3 are below:

Christine from Christag_Banners (bannermaker extraordinaire and all round cool chick) made the first two and I was mucking around one night with a free program and made the final one after I had written the story. 

A little teaser:

I had never thought of myself as a weak man or possessing any kind of a submissive nature. Quite the opposite, in fact. My job was in senior management at a large corporation – Financial Controller of Cullen Enterprises, and I directly managed a team of fifty accountants, planners and clerical staff. I was used to making decisions and giving orders all day, every day and, on most occasions, I also chaired the Board Meetings as the current Chairman since Carlisle Cullen himself, had recently moved into semi-retirement in order to spend time with his wife, Esme.


However, I loved it whenever Bella took the initiative in the bedroom, her every action showing me how much she loved and desired me. These times had been so freeing for me, giving the power to someone else, not having to be the one always responsible for making decisions, to be able to simply feel and respond.

My future happiness was dependent on this night and right at this moment my gut was churning and I could feel myself starting to even sweat a little at the thought that this last ditch attempt with Bella might fail.

Not to be too melodramatic, but the rest of my life would be determined by what would take place in this room over the next few hours. I was nervous about what I hoped would happen. But I was equally determined to move forward with my plan for the evening. I had never done anything like this, but then again, I had never faced anything like the last six months before and I was prepared to do anything it took.

To be quite honest, I think Bella is planning on leaving me. She has been more distant with me than ever before and keeps telling me that I deserve someone who is not as broken as she is. She is trying to do the right thing by me, even though I constantly tell her that the right thing for me is to be with her, in whatever capacity she wants. She hasn’t agreed with me for months.

My plan to relinquish complete control to Bella in the bedroom is my last ditch effort to save our relationship.

To read more, click here.

Enjoy

Suz

Teaser - Chapter 13 of Scent of a Woman

Yes, it's true.  You're not seeing things...Chapter 13 has finally been stitched up and sent off to my beta in the early hours of this morning.  I have no idea why I had so much trouble finalising this chapter...maybe it was my preoccupation worrying about the number 13 lol! I have been busy with some contests and a contribution to the Preemie Compilation and 2 chapters of Menage and I hurt my arm and couldn't type...but never fear I have already got a fair bit (okay a little bit) of Chapter 14 written.

Oh and before I forget, the lovely @callsignC30 reviewed Scent of a Woman on TwiFicPromotions  a few weeks ago and said lots of lovely things about it....if you haven't seen the review and would like to, here is the link :-)

A little unbeta'd teaser while beans827 performs her magic on the chapter:

From Chapter 12-



“Edward, can I ask you a question?”


He glanced up from his notebook and nodded slowly when he met my eyes. I was lost for long moments, floating in the warm golden sea of his eyes. Beautiful.


I shook my head to rid myself of its sudden stupor and plucked up my courage, “This may seem like a really strange question, but have we met before? You seem very familiar to me, but I just can’t seem to place where I know you from.”


Right in front of my eyes, Edward’s face broke out into the most brilliant smile I had ever seen. Then he lifted my fingers to his lips, just like I had seen him do before in my dreams, and gently kissed my knuckles before whispering, “Yes Bella, we have met before, but I’m not sure you’ll believe me as to where.”


My fingers were tingling from the contact with his cold hand and cold lips and it was a minute before his words caught up with me. What the hell did he mean?


Forks 2005

-Edward-

She remembered me!

Or, at the very least, it seemed that her subconscious knew me, knew that I was familiar and was trying to bring me to the surface of Bella’s brain through her vivid dreams. Could it be this easy? Could I simply tell Bella that we’d met each other before in her previous lives and the prompt would trigger her mind to remember everything?

Bella’s question threw me for a loop; never once had my soul mate recognized me to this extent. Our souls had always been drawn together naturally and I had used that, and the fact that I could read my love’s mind, to my advantage in pursuing a relationship.

She remembered me!

That’s all I could think about as I watched her, watching me, nervously biting her lip after she had asked her question. I was leaving her hanging as I stared at her, her nervousness increasing as I worked through the feelings her recognition caused, my inner turmoil as I sorted through a half dozen scenarios about what to tell her.

She remembered me!

Without realizing it, my hand had snaked across the table and taken hers within its firm grip. The feel of her warm skin, her blood flowing so close to the surface, each heartbeat pulsing against the pads of my fingers woke me from the daze her words invoked.

The desire to touch her, to feel her warm skin against mine had always been strong, overpowering, and that had not waned over time. I had never been able to get close enough to her to be satisfied, not even in the throes of passion that we had shared over the years.

Could it be different…more…all encompassing, if she knew all there was to know? Would our union transcend the highest plane if she knew and remembered how deep our bond truly was?

........... and later

Emmett couldn’t stop smiling as he rounded the corner. He was getting the chance to talk to Bella in person, the object of his brother’s affection. Emmett sorely missed his human brother, Ethan, long dead these many years, and was jumping at the bit to take me under his wing and impart his knowledge of the fairer sex.

As soon as I saw them at the end of the hall, I stopped breathing and slumped against the wall as if weak with illness and whispered to him, so fast and so softly that Bella had no idea we were even conversing, to stand between Bella and I until we were safely away from the school.

“Thank you, Bella. I think I might have come back to school a little early, I’m not quite feeling myself just yet.”

She nodded and started to walk back to the classroom as I moved away from the wall and walked towards the front door with Emmett pretending to support me. Bella called out to me just before we reached the outside world.

“Don’t think I’ve forgotten that you haven’t yet answered my question, Edward Cullen.”

Emmett’s eyebrows rose and he couldn’t help himself, “Dude,” he whispered, “has Bella asked you out?” then grunted as I elbowed him hard in the side.

------------ and a little cliffy based on the story summary:



Story Summary: When Edward vaulted over the Volvo to save Bella from being crushed by the van, Alice had heard him whisper, "Not her!". What she didn't hear were the next two, "Not again!".

Teaser - Chapter 6 of Menage a Trois - Camaraderie

Finally Chapter 6 of Menage a Trois is with my beta so thought I would send out a little teaser while your waiting.

First some pic teasers:

And now for the unbeta'd tease:

Once Jasper was settled into West Point, he had a lot more free weekends and spent all of them with us in New York. I hadn’t had a really close male friend for years, probably not since college, and Jasper surprisingly filled that role with little effort, despite his past with Bella. I’d known the boys from the work band for longer, and although they were all good mates, we usually only hung out on a group basis, never really one on one.

Jasper and I bonded over our love of music initially. Whenever he was in town, we spent hours together mucking around on my guitars and some of my other instruments. Hours disappeared as if they were mere minutes in his company. Jasper was a whizz at finger style blues guitar which I had only ever dabbled in before and we spent many an afternoon with Jasper teaching me some of his favorite old blues songs. He was a great teacher…very patient and focused. In return I taught him some classical songs including a version of Clare de Lune written for two guitars. It was one of my favorite pieces and sounded amazing with our two guitars harmonizing.


Bella was usually quite content to sit and listen or read a book while we jammed together. She refused to let me teach her, although I would’ve dearly loved to and I’d tried to convince her to let me a number of times over the last few months. She kept insisting that an old boyfriend had tried, but that she was all thumbs and she just wasn’t coordinated enough. The boyfriend, James, had ended up frustrated with her and all they’d done was fight. She didn’t want that to happen with us and she kept reminding me that she was more than happy to simply be my groupie.


Tonight, as usual I gave in, probably because I loved it when Bella wanted to role play…and holy hell my favorite was when she pretended to be my groupie. So sue me…who wouldn’t like their woman going all fangirl over them?


Suzanne

3rd Place Winner - anon Beautiful Edward Challenge - Beauty Crowds Me

Hi All,

I'm so excited and needed to share - my little one shot 'Beauty Crowds Me' won 3rd place in the Beautiful Edward Challenge yesterday. It was an anonymous contest so this is the first time its been posted on my profile.  I received a 3rd place banner for "Delectable Edward" as the prize :-)

Yay - my fave Edward doing the STRUT from New Moon. Sigh!

Here is a little banner I made for the story on Paint...it's basic but I think it conveys what the story is about:

Summary: Edward is beautiful, of that there is no doubt. His looks have opened so many doors for him, but it has closed just as many others. Has the door slammed shut on what he truly wants? Beautiful Edward Challenge Entry.


Link to Beauty Crowds Me on my fanfiction profile here

Link to Beautiful Edward Challenge entries here if you would like to read the other entries to the contest

Congratulation to the other winners - albymangroves, mpg82 and ILoveTweedward :-)

Suzanne

Fandom for Preemies Contribution - Mistress of my Heart

I have contributed a one-shot to be included in a compilation of stories for the Fandom for Preemies which is raising money for the March of Dimes organization.  If you want to know more about this - click on the Fandom for Preemies button on the top right hand corner of my blog.  If you donate a minimum of $5 for a Preemies virtual band with the March of Dimes organisation from 1 - 30 November 2010,  it entitles you to receive the compilation of stories.  Over 100 writers have contributed.  You can see a list of contributing authors on their blog.

My contribution is a one-shot is called Mistress of my Heart.  Here is the banner I've made for it plus a little teaser:

Teaser:

As I looked once more over the assortment of toys placed neatly on the dresser, my heart started to pump out of control again, my thoughts momentarily engaged in an inner debate. On one hand, I hoped with all my heart that Bella and I would be using these devices, yet conversely, I was also desperately scared that we would be leaving our naivety behind tonight and entering into the unknown. I wasn’t too afraid to admit that I was a little scared.



Nevertheless, I was having a hard time pinning down what it was that I was exactly afraid of. Inside, I was desperately worried that I wouldn’t like the planned activities for this evening and would have to go through the motions of submission, possibly for the rest of my life, simply to be with her.


Or, was I afraid that I would like it too much?


I had never thought of myself as a weak man or possessing any kind of a submissive nature. Quite the opposite, in fact. My job was in senior management at a large corporation – Financial Controller of Cullen Enterprises, and I directly managed a team of 50 accountants, planners and clerical staff. I was used to making decisions and giving orders all day, every day and, on most occasions, I also chaired the Board Meetings as the current Chairman since Carlisle Cullen himself, had recently moved into semi-retirement in order to spend time with his wife, Esme.


However, I loved it whenever Bella took the initiative in the bedroom, her every action showing me how much she loved and desired me. These times had been so freeing for me, giving the power to someone else, not having to be the one always responsible for making decisions, to be able to simply feel and respond.


My future happiness was dependent on this night and right at this moment my gut was churning and I could feel myself starting to even sweat a little at the thought that this last ditch attempt with Bella might fail.



Please check out the Fandom for Preemies link - it is for a very good cause.

Suzanne

My entry in the anonymous In the Closet Contest - Covet

..........and you all  thought I was being lazy over the last month because there were no Scent or Menage updates!

I wrote a little (ok - a not so little) Edward/Jasper vamp slash one-shot for the anonymous In the Closet contest.  The contest has finished and the winners were announced this morning so we can post on our profiles now- congrats to Angstgoddess003 and PastichePen for first  and second place wins in the M/M category - lovely stories.   If you haven't already, go here to read all the entries from the contest.

Here is the banner for my one-shot - Covet - made by the lovely Christine from Christag_banners

And the link to the fic on my Fan Fiction profile is here.

The one-shot is written completely from Jasper's POV

Summary:

What do you do when you meet the love of your existence a year after you marry the saviour of your soul?  Edward and Jasper thought they were doomed to a life of longing and regret until they meet someone who holds the key to unlock their future.

Hope you enjoy.

Suzanne

Age of Edward 2010 Contest Entry

I have been having a little addiction to fanfiction contests over the last month so my regular stories have been on hold for a little while.  I have entered 2 anonymous contests which are still running so I cannot post any details as yet.  I have also just posted "C'est la Vie", my entry for the 2010 Age of Edward contest which is based in Versailles Paris in the 18th Century.

Here is the link to the fic on fanfiction.net:
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6365208/1/Cest_la_Vie

Here is the link to the contest page on fanfiction.net so you can read the other stories:
http://www.fanfiction.net/community/Age_of_Edward_2010/84445/

There is also an anonymous banner contest and a lovely lady (who I can't name yet) made the above banner for this story and has entered the contest.  To see all the banners, they are on the Age of Edward blog here:
http://www.ageofedward.com/?page_id=102

To give you an idea of what life was like in Versailles in these times, I thought I would post this vid from the movie Marie Antoinette starring Kirsten Dunst. 

Well, if you have been following me for a while, you know I am big into researching the era's and places I write about so here are some pics of real life people and places that are referred to in my story.  Luckily I worked in Paris for a little while a few (quite a few) years ago and visited Versailles the township for lunch with the people I worked with and who lived there.  After a very long and rather alcoholic lunch they took us on a guided tour of the Palace gardens and the palace itself.   It is utterly amazing...and beautiful.

The Palace:

The Theatre within the Palace

The Folly in the gardens of Versailles

 

A pic from the movie Marie-Antoinette to give you idea of the reception rooms and the fashions of the day:

Paintings of real people referred to:

Louis XVI and Marie-Antoinette

Marie-Antoinette in full court dress

Marie-Antoinette with 3 of her children

princesse de Lamballe, the Queen's best friend who met a terrible death in the hands of the mob

Comte de Artois - The Kings brother and friend to the Queen

I had so much fun writing this story, hope you enjoy reading it.

Suzanne